I noticed a change in my mindset, in all areas of life, after we talked more in depth about changing the script. Beginning to understand that I don't have to stay in the subordinate victim role, just because someone else tried to put me in it, has made a big difference. I immediately noticed it making a difference in my personal relationships with others who I have pretty unhealthy relationships with. Even before acting on it, it was liberating just realizing that I can change the script and respond in a way that allows me to take back my power.
I think it has been that recognition that has really helped reduce my anxiety in situations that trigger me- but also in my daily life. Adding the physical element of learning how to own my space has added to that sense of liberation. I don't feel like I'm constantly looking over my shoulder. In fact, my “what-if” scenarios always included immediate submission on my part. They don't anymore.
It was as though I needed someone to give me permission to reject the script I had been taught as I child. I'm still working on all of this, but I have noticed a significant difference. As my mind is learning to set boundaries and stand up for myself, Christian is helping me to physically learn how to assess a situation and respond in a smart way. This is not a typical self-defense class. This is a re-training of my mind to better understand the physical forces at work, so I can then retrain my body to respond in a most efficient way. He came to my house for the lesson (it is hard to leave with 3 kids at home), he started with the theory and basics to build on, he moved at a pace that worked for me, and he continually checked in as we progressed with the lesson. I am already feeling more empowered and in charge of my body. I look forward to continuing these lessons and discovering my internal strength. Thanks, Christian!